Divinely Hooked

I really hate racism. It's not something that is only aimed at non-white people. I am very much a white person and I have experienced racial tension and dislike for being me, being with and married to a black man, and for having children with this man. When my husband and I were first together we were visiting his mom and one of the older black men there did not appreciate that there was a white woman in his area. He started to yell at me and cuss at me and call me a "cracker" and all that goes with that. Luckily, I had a very outspoken and loving mother-in-law and she put that old man in his place. When I started working, when we first moved to Florida, people loved me and they loved to work with me, but when they found out that I was in a relationship with a black man their demeanor and attitudes to me changed. And I heard that they were saying how I could do better and I shouldn't be with someone like that. When I would go out with just my son often I would get d

https://youtu.be/VXCyDoJOjdU Today I'm not okay. And that's okay. We're allowed to have bad days. Even with medication, there's still going to be bad days. This week my mom was put on hospice care. If you're not familiar with what that is, it is end of life care. I helped her shower for the first time this week. I'm making sure she takes her medicine, holding her when she cries, and trying to help keep her house tidy. She such a sweet woman, I hate that she is going through what she's going through. Had she known at the beginning of it all, how she would feel now, she wouldn't have done any of it. I don't want her to die soon, but I also don't want her to be in pain. On top of watching my mother die, my 10 year old is at the point of a mental breakdown, and I'm at the end of my rope. He's so angry and so hateful that starting tonight I'll be sleeping with my door locked. He's been caught lying and stealing. Yesterday he decide