Divinely Hooked

I am so worn out, to put it bluntly. It's so hard to deal with my own mental wellness, but to also having two kids with issues as well is really hard. Many nights I go to bed shortly after they do because I'm completely exhausted. (They go to bed at 8pm.) Recently my older son, who has comprehension/language disorder and zero common sense among depression, anxiety and adhd, got into trouble because of being around the wrong kid at school. This child is bad news and will be in legal trouble before too long. At the start of the year he lied to my son and stole some stuff from him, and when that happened I told my son to not be around him or be friends with him. Spoiler alert: He didn't listen. I know, you're shocked. This child, recently, gave my son visa cards that were not his and convinced my son he was allowed to use them. This became a huge issue (obviously) and I contacted the school because I had no idea who's cards these where or where they came from. Long sto...

I have never been a small town girl. Don't get me wrong I LOVE the country. I LOVE farms and animals. And I very much love the peacefulness of being away from busyness. However, living in a small town just isn't for me. A little over a year ago I made the decision, with full support from my amazing husband, to move to this small (to us) town so I could be close to my parents and be near my mom as she came to the end of her earthly life. That choice will never ever be a regretted one. While we have had many negative experiences here, none of it will take away from the 5 months that I had with, caring for, and loving my sweet mama. The absolute hardest part of moving is leaving the last place I was able to physically love on her. I won't be able to walk into "her room" at their house anymore or sit in her rocking chair by the windows she loved to look out of. And it's so hard.  I thought moving to a predominantly black community would be a positive experience fo...

I've been on mood stabilizer medication for a few years now (Thank the Lord!) and now my darker skinned mini-me is too. He was taking kids chewable Singulair and I found out from his regular doctor that it is common for that to cause suicidal tendencies. So I took him off of that, which has helped, and now he's on other medicine to balance his brain out. I'm hopeful that starting it early will train his brain to do what it's supposed to do so he won't have to be on medication for the rest of his life. But, if that's necessary for him to have balance, then that's ok!  I never want him to feel ashamed about it. Our brain's chemical make up isn't anything we can control.  I, now and always, will support him in his effort to be mentally healthy! It is so important! I'm proud that he wants to be balanced and doesn't see anything wrong with needing help with that. It's been a week so far, we just got up to dosage on his ADHD/depression medicati...

Y'all ever have those days when it's just over load? Of course you do, we all do! And you never know when that day is for others! I was going to record a video, but... 1)I look awful, 2) with everything going on I'm weepy and wouldn't get through the video, and 3) writing it I can make sure I'm making sense and getting what I want out how I want it. Update on my mom: She is still alive. She is steadily declining. She's in more and more pain. We had her pain medication increased today so it should be better. She sleeps most of the time. She is very weak and has fallen a few times. Recently she fell in her room (thankfully she landed on a box of supplies and sat there until she got her strength) but she said she was trying to call for me but she couldn't remember my name. Her voice is also weak so I wouldn't have been able to hear her. I put a bell on the table by her bed, I'm not sure if she will remember what it's there for though. I'd write ...