Divinely Hooked

Six months ago my doctor suddenly retired and I had to find a new one. I had to find one right away to get my anti-depressant refilled. I found one and today was my 6-month follow up. I went in last week to have my blood drawn for labs. That alone was not a good trip. The first person tried to take my blood and missed. So she tried the other arm and missed in that one too. So she went to get someone else. The second lady came in and felt around, started looking for a butterfly needle to draw my blood and couldn't find one. So she left and just didn't come back. So a third lady came in looks at my veins, finds one she likes and jabs me hard with the needle to get it in there. After that I was done, but my arms were very sore and a bit bruised. I went back today, for my follow up. My labs were fine. I had called a week before the labs to see if she would do a thyroid panel, but never heard back from them and (I assume) they didn't do them.  So today I go in and ask

I don't know about yall, but I'm tired all the time! I'm not sure why, but I'm worn out. I've really been slacking on my house work. So much so, that today I cleaned up a bit and my older son came home and noticed. Lol and trust me when I say, he's not an observant person (he gets it from his daddy lol). I thought it was maybe my medicine, so I switched to taking it at night for a few days. But I discovered that when I would take it at night I would lay awake for hours. So, I switched it back to taking it in the morning. I usually have about an hour after I get up in the mornings that I feel energetic enough to get things done. Some days I force myself, but a lot of days (especially when I work) I can't. I did schedule my next doctor's appointment for December, so I'll discuss it with her then. My older son has started playing flag football! I can't even express how much I enjoy it! I just love watching him out there playing! This last Satur

I've been feeling a bit down and full of complaints the last few days, however I have some funnies to tell so that's what I'm going to do. Complaining won't do any good to anyone anyway, right. As a kid I was a bit... dense. Sometimes I'm still a bit gullible and as some would say, "blonde". My older son, unfortunate, has inherited that amazing trait. The other day was my brother's birthday, so the night before we're all sitting around the dinner table eating and my husband says to my brother, "We could go play pool." My son says, "Yay 3D pool!" (It's a pool game my husband plays on his phone). I say, "Not on the phone son, in real life." My son, without missing a beat says, "I'll only go with my floaties." I'm not exactly sure where it switched in his brain from a pool game to a swimming pool, but at any rate it was hilarious. So we were all laughing, and he had no idea why. His innocent l

We've been back from vacation for almost a month, but I've been so busy and so tired that I haven't written an update yet. So here it goes. The day we left for vacation I had to work until 5:30pm.. so we didn't end up leaving until around 7. We had a HUGE SUV, which was needed since we had 4 adult-size people, 3 kids, and a 50lb dog. We didn't get very far before the low tire pressure light came on. We got about an hour and a half away from home and put air in the tire.. which ended up going flat. So, we pulled into a hotel parking lot, in the rain, took all our stuff out and tried to change the tire. I think we were there for close to 3 hours. I had booked the rental on hotwire because it was super cheap and bought the insurance (of course), but it didn't tell me that the insurance wasn't through the rental company. So, the rental company would not come out and help us with the tire. They wanted us to change the tire, and then drive to the nearest rental

Tomorrow is June! It does not seem possible that this year has gone so fast already! I'm still doing well on my medication. I've had some of the physical pain like before when I wasn't on anything, but emotionally I'm stable. The arthritic pain in my joints is back and my headaches. I go back to my doctor in a few weeks, so I'll discuss with her whether an increase in the medication will help. My little one had his first nose bleed today. I have no idea how he got it, I assume he stuck his finger in his nose or the toy he was playing with. lol He was very confused about what was happening. Luckily it ended very quickly and didn't start back up. Hopefully he doesn't get nose bleeds often like I do. My older son has never had one and he's almost 8. Oh. My. Gosh. My older son is almost EIGHT! It doesn't seem possible!! Every year I do a picture of him by the front door holding a sign that says its the First (or last) day of school, how tall he is,

So, I've been on my new medication for a while now. It's been much better than what I was on before, but not quite all better. I'll keep going with this one, but will probably see about an increase at my next appointment. My new birth control has helped a lot. I've not had much pain during the month like I was before. In June we're going to go see my parents! I'm so ready to see them! Especially my mama! I haven't seen her since before she did her radiation. It'll also be the first time I've been to where they live and they have lived there for around 5 or 6 years. I'm hoping we can afford it. Why must money rule all??? I really dislike it! That's all for now. Hope you are all doing well. OH! May is mental health awareness month! I think every month we should all be bringing awareness to mental health and the importance of it. It's real and getting the help makes a huge difference! Not only in the life of the person with the me

If you follow my blog you know that a couple weeks ago I changed what medication I'm taking. Well, I didn't change the medication, but I got rid of one and started to use a stronger of the other one I was taking already. Unfortunately it's not been a good change. I am back to how I was before I even started medicine. Not quite as clouded over in my head, but I've not been a nice person at all. And I'm miserable. I messaged my doctor the end of last week just to let her know I didn't think this was going to work, but I was going to give it another week to see if my body adjusted. She messaged me back and agreed, and that if things didn't improve to call on Monday and set up a follow up and we would discuss what to do next. So, on Monday I'll call her and I'm praying it won't take long for her be able to get me in. For those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, I have depression. For some reason the chemicals in my brain aren'

I had my medication follow up with my doctor yesterday. And... wait for it.... I got my Tetanus booster shot! Now that may not seem like a big deal.. but as a kid I cried my eyes out any time I had to get a shot and it seemed that every time we had to move I was the one that had to get shots. Anyway, it had been 17 years since my last one! I'm a little sore today but not too bad. I didn't even feel her give me the shot! I should take my kids to her when they need their shots! I even called my mom to tell her I got a shot. haha I also am in the process of adjusting my medication. I'm going to be doing a stronger, longer lasting pill of the one that I was already taking in the mornings and slowly phasing out the medication I take at night. I'm praying that it is a smooth transition and doesn't cause me too much grief. I've also got a new birth control to try. Hopefully this will help all the issues and pain I have all month long. ----------------------------

I didn't realize how long it's been since I've posted! Life is crazy... did yall know that?? lol So I did a three month trial of a low dose of birth control.. needless to say it did not work. I am going back to my doctor next week to discuss what's next. I'm perfectly okay with just taking them out, but they don't seem to want to do that because I'm only 30 years old. My mental stability is still doing well. It's nice not to be getting blood-boiling made over everything. I can't really even say that I've gotten really fired up about anything. Frustrated, yes. But not crazy angry like before. I'm going to be asking my doctor if I can try some different medication though. I'm doing great mentally, but the side effect aren't all that great. They're not horrible, but I want to see about getting on something else that will not have me so tired and lazy. I can MAKE myself do stuff, but I'd rather be sleeping or at least laying

Have you ever felt like that?? I know I have. I couldn't understand why things kept happening the way they did. I thought that my miscarriages were punishments from God for having sex before marriage. I thought that all the hard times I went through was His anger toward me.. but boy was I SO wrong! Last Sunday we had a guest pastor come to speak, Pat Schatzline, and it was a great message. (I'll put links to him at the end of this blog.) But I wanted to share what was said and other things I got out of it. It was a powerful message and God came down to us and His presence was truly there. 4 Reasons people think God is mad at them: 1. We often see God as we saw our earthly (flawed) father. When people grow up with out a father around, with an unloving father, whatever kind of father.. we picture God in the same way. But He isn't at all like our earthly fathers. He's so much better! He doesn't get angry when we do stupid things. He doesn't fly off the handle

My mind tends to wonder about a lot of different things when it's supposed to be shutting down for the night. Normally I lay here and pray, even then random thoughts interrupt my conversations with God. Lately though I've had more wonderings than prayer, but I keep trying. And I keep praying.. God follows along with my ramblings and thankfully knows my heart even when my mind walks off. It could also be the fact that I've been eating chocolate (they were on clearance at work after Christmas and I'm a sucker for chocolate and caramel!) and had an amazing piece of chocolate cake earlier (seriously this place my husband drivers to called Pinchers has THE best chocolate cake ever!)... But even without that wonderfulness my mind takes strolls. Not just strolls.. Full marathon walks sometimes. (That made me think of speed walking and how hilarious those people look doing that) Lol A lot of the time it's about silly stuff, like grocery items I need to write down or c