Not so smooth transition.
If you follow my blog you know that a couple weeks ago I changed what medication I'm taking. Well, I didn't change the medication, but I got rid of one and started to use a stronger of the other one I was taking already.
Unfortunately it's not been a good change. I am back to how I was before I even started medicine. Not quite as clouded over in my head, but I've not been a nice person at all. And I'm miserable. I messaged my doctor the end of last week just to let her know I didn't think this was going to work, but I was going to give it another week to see if my body adjusted. She messaged me back and agreed, and that if things didn't improve to call on Monday and set up a follow up and we would discuss what to do next. So, on Monday I'll call her and I'm praying it won't take long for her be able to get me in.
For those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, I have depression. For some reason the chemicals in my brain aren't at a correct level and it affects every aspect of my mind and body. My body is painful! I sometimes don't even want to walk because the pain is so bad. My finger joints hurt to the point of not wanting to use my hands. My hips and low back hurt, and headaches are a constant. I'm angry and easily annoyed all day every day. I'm moody, snappy, and just a total jerk. I am also super weepy! Oh my goodness! I cry about every little thing. It could be something stupid and I get teary over it. I also take everything personal.
So, not having medication that helps those pesky chemicals in my brain level out is a big deal.
The reason I stopped taking the medicine that was really helping was because it made me super tired all day long to the point that I was laying on the couch all day, not getting anything accomplished. It also had intimacy side affects that were bad and weren't something that I wanted to continue to deal with.
Luckily, there are TONS of mood stabilizing medications to try, and I look forward to getting back to being a level person.
If you are someone who is suffering from depression, don't wait to find your level! This isn't something that you can wish away and hope it will change on it's own. It's a real issue. It's not your fault! Some of our brains just don't create or have the right stuff going on in there to keep us sane, and thankfully there are medications that help! So please, stop putting it off! Get the help you need and find the medication that works for you!
Until next time!
Unfortunately it's not been a good change. I am back to how I was before I even started medicine. Not quite as clouded over in my head, but I've not been a nice person at all. And I'm miserable. I messaged my doctor the end of last week just to let her know I didn't think this was going to work, but I was going to give it another week to see if my body adjusted. She messaged me back and agreed, and that if things didn't improve to call on Monday and set up a follow up and we would discuss what to do next. So, on Monday I'll call her and I'm praying it won't take long for her be able to get me in.
For those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, I have depression. For some reason the chemicals in my brain aren't at a correct level and it affects every aspect of my mind and body. My body is painful! I sometimes don't even want to walk because the pain is so bad. My finger joints hurt to the point of not wanting to use my hands. My hips and low back hurt, and headaches are a constant. I'm angry and easily annoyed all day every day. I'm moody, snappy, and just a total jerk. I am also super weepy! Oh my goodness! I cry about every little thing. It could be something stupid and I get teary over it. I also take everything personal.
So, not having medication that helps those pesky chemicals in my brain level out is a big deal.
The reason I stopped taking the medicine that was really helping was because it made me super tired all day long to the point that I was laying on the couch all day, not getting anything accomplished. It also had intimacy side affects that were bad and weren't something that I wanted to continue to deal with.
Luckily, there are TONS of mood stabilizing medications to try, and I look forward to getting back to being a level person.
If you are someone who is suffering from depression, don't wait to find your level! This isn't something that you can wish away and hope it will change on it's own. It's a real issue. It's not your fault! Some of our brains just don't create or have the right stuff going on in there to keep us sane, and thankfully there are medications that help! So please, stop putting it off! Get the help you need and find the medication that works for you!
Until next time!
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