A look back

Tonight's video I looked back at some old blog posts from before I got on medication.

https://youtu.be/yj3uHEMSnMY

It's heartbreaking to me to see the anger and how much I hated myself. And it's so sad that I waited so long to get the help I needed.

If you need help, please seek help. YOU are worth it!


P.S. I look like I don't have any eyebrows. HAHA! Note to self.. do my eyebrows before the next video. LOL!

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