I stink! LOL
Hey everyone! It's been a while!
An update about the porn watching neighbor boy: He has chosen to not be friends or even speak to my son because he told me about what happened at the birthday party. I did speak to the boy and explain that he wasn't trying to be a tattletale, he was trying to understand what he saw and that I told on him. We haven't seen him since. Not a huge disappointment for me since he wasn't a nice kid anyway, but a tough thing for my son to deal with. I have not yet had "the talk" yet with my son, I'm getting ready to prepare myself and get what I want to go over with him figured out. Then we will have the talk in the next few weeks.
I have been getting better with the dizziness from my meds. It's not as bad. Really I don't notice it anymore, which is good since I'd rather not randomly fall over. haha. I've been exercising regularly since about March. I'm down 5lbs, but let me tell you I hate it! Not the weight loss, the exercise. I really have to force myself to get moving and to drink my water. It doesn't help that I sweat like crazy and it's disgusting! I'm not sure why my body has started doing this, but it sucks! I sweat horribly, and there is nothing I can do about it. Also doesn't help that I haven't been able to find a good deodorant and so far the one's I'm trying have 1) not worked and 2) still left my armpits itchy and irritated. And when you have deodorant that doesn't work and you sweat a lot, you don't really want to be around people. LOL
I am still having some cramping, even with being on the birth control pills, I'm considering making an appointment with my gyno to see if she would be willing to do at least a partial hysterectomy. They wouldn't even discuss it with me before because I'm only in my 30s, but maybe they will if it's only a partial. The cramps aren't anywhere near as bad as they were before I was on the birth control, but it's enough not to want to have my uterus inside me anymore. Endometriosis sucks!
I've been thinking a lot lately about the struggle people have with depression and the stigma attached to it. I'm thankful that it has become more widely talked about, but there are still a lot of people that don't think it's real, or don't think that it's serious. Being a Christian woman, I feel that many Christians think that because I am a Christian I shouldn't need medication or doctors to be "happy". And that makes it even harder to deal with it. Depression isn't just being sad or being sad about something specific. It's where the chemicals in the brain are not at the levels that they are supposed to be resulting in a host of physical, mental, and emotional issues. I used to feel guilty that God wasn't healing me and that I wasn't better even though I prayed and relied on God. But then God let me know that He created everyone. He created those doctors to help us and He wasn't healing me on His own because I needed to be His vessel to reach others. It's my calling to let you know that it is okay to get help. It is okay to need medication to get those chemicals evened out. IT IS OKAY! God loves you and he wants you to be content. And He wants you to feel sane.
Getting the brain levels right is so very important! It really makes a huge difference in how you feel and how your body feels! Do not wait any longer if this is you. Don't be ashamed or embarrassed. We cannot help how our brain creates and sends the chemicals out. But THANK GOD he gave people the smarts to figure out how to get them back to normal, or at least close.
That's all for now my friends.
Again, don't wait to get help. Get out there and get yourself right. It is SO worth it!
An update about the porn watching neighbor boy: He has chosen to not be friends or even speak to my son because he told me about what happened at the birthday party. I did speak to the boy and explain that he wasn't trying to be a tattletale, he was trying to understand what he saw and that I told on him. We haven't seen him since. Not a huge disappointment for me since he wasn't a nice kid anyway, but a tough thing for my son to deal with. I have not yet had "the talk" yet with my son, I'm getting ready to prepare myself and get what I want to go over with him figured out. Then we will have the talk in the next few weeks.
I have been getting better with the dizziness from my meds. It's not as bad. Really I don't notice it anymore, which is good since I'd rather not randomly fall over. haha. I've been exercising regularly since about March. I'm down 5lbs, but let me tell you I hate it! Not the weight loss, the exercise. I really have to force myself to get moving and to drink my water. It doesn't help that I sweat like crazy and it's disgusting! I'm not sure why my body has started doing this, but it sucks! I sweat horribly, and there is nothing I can do about it. Also doesn't help that I haven't been able to find a good deodorant and so far the one's I'm trying have 1) not worked and 2) still left my armpits itchy and irritated. And when you have deodorant that doesn't work and you sweat a lot, you don't really want to be around people. LOL
I am still having some cramping, even with being on the birth control pills, I'm considering making an appointment with my gyno to see if she would be willing to do at least a partial hysterectomy. They wouldn't even discuss it with me before because I'm only in my 30s, but maybe they will if it's only a partial. The cramps aren't anywhere near as bad as they were before I was on the birth control, but it's enough not to want to have my uterus inside me anymore. Endometriosis sucks!
I've been thinking a lot lately about the struggle people have with depression and the stigma attached to it. I'm thankful that it has become more widely talked about, but there are still a lot of people that don't think it's real, or don't think that it's serious. Being a Christian woman, I feel that many Christians think that because I am a Christian I shouldn't need medication or doctors to be "happy". And that makes it even harder to deal with it. Depression isn't just being sad or being sad about something specific. It's where the chemicals in the brain are not at the levels that they are supposed to be resulting in a host of physical, mental, and emotional issues. I used to feel guilty that God wasn't healing me and that I wasn't better even though I prayed and relied on God. But then God let me know that He created everyone. He created those doctors to help us and He wasn't healing me on His own because I needed to be His vessel to reach others. It's my calling to let you know that it is okay to get help. It is okay to need medication to get those chemicals evened out. IT IS OKAY! God loves you and he wants you to be content. And He wants you to feel sane.
Getting the brain levels right is so very important! It really makes a huge difference in how you feel and how your body feels! Do not wait any longer if this is you. Don't be ashamed or embarrassed. We cannot help how our brain creates and sends the chemicals out. But THANK GOD he gave people the smarts to figure out how to get them back to normal, or at least close.
That's all for now my friends.
Again, don't wait to get help. Get out there and get yourself right. It is SO worth it!
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