Not every day is a good one

To be honest most of my days aren't good ones lately. And quite frankly it sucks. I hate being angry. I hate being down for no reason. I hate that every little thing annoys me. And I hate that there's nothing I can do about it.
I wish it was as easy as just snapping out of it. Or faking it. But it's not. It's a full body frustration.

None if this however takes away from God being God and Him being good.

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